You have finished your group project. As you reflect on the semester how are your feeling about your group? Were your expectations met? What did you learn about yourself? About others in the group? About the pro's and con's of group learning?
Iiii am afraid that this semester only reinforced my hatred for working in groups. I really stress out over working in groups anyway because I always have this paralysing fear that I am going to be the only person in the group who does any work, or any good work, and I will FAIL, and if I had just worked alone I would not have FAILED, and oh god noooo. And then I cry.
My group partner was very enthusiastic at first, but he pretty quickly got less so, and unfortunately while he was willing to provide any written material that I asked for, he never cited ANYTHING, so I ended up researching the entire project myself anyway just to find sources for his claims, so after a while I stopped asking him for help. Even when I asked him to provide sources for the things he wrote, he told me that he "just knew" everything already and citing was really difficult and annoying for him.
So I learned that I am still unbearably anal-retentive, and that I probably would have had a lot less work to do if I had been able to accept a lower grade on assignments or if I were just less neurotic in general. And I probably should have been more confrontational and insisted that he provide sources, so I'm aware that it's at least partly my fault for chickening out.
I think my experience would have been better if I had been in a larger group, instead of one consisting of only two people, because then the work might have been more evenly distributed. However, the experience did emphasise that for my group work is a source of conflict, and one I am going to need to learn to deal with in the future instead of shouldering the majority of the work because I am too afraid to express my displeasure with the way things are going.
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